i'm fallng so fast and so hard for you
i can't get my grip on anything
time flies by and stands still
my heart feels like its about to burst
and only you can save me
and i trust you will save me
because i trust you more than anyone in my life
---
aunt's birthday today, thats means food, and lots of it.
luckily my mom made vegetarian versions of what she's serving for me and my best friend heather.
i MIGHT be able to invite my boyfriend over, but because of our recent "incident" at the house (my mom saw me straddling him and kissing in the computer room and she texted me, TEXTED ME!, to "get off of him now !!" -_-) he's on my mom's "shitlist". she never says the word shit. She's just trying to feel cool. Way to go, mom.
So my fingers are crossed that e can come, because my sister's boyfriend is coming and then hopefully heather's boyfriend will come too. What a cute bunch.
yesterdays menu was fairly good, had beans and rice for lunch that my mom made for me, and dinner didnt happen until around 8 when i got a veggie bowl at Chipotle. I stayed up until about 4 and "worked out" i guess? So i'm not too worried. Plus, i woke up looking a bit thinner, my hip bones are starting to come out !! {:
Today i had a slice of wheat toast with a slice of cheese (badddd!) and some hot cheetos-_- I'm drinking as many liquids as i can to flush that shit out.
Last night i told my boyfriend about how i "used to" cut myself. I still do, but haven't in a while. Thankfully it didn't scare him away. I told him because i didn't want him to see the scars and then ask and make it weird. Just thought i'd be honest about something for once. But, i'm always honest with him. There's nothing to lie about and nothing to hide. He doesn't even mind or ask questions about when my stomach growls. He makes it more like a joke and will put his ear to my stomach and say stuff like, "What's you say?" "Hello to you too!", cute stuff that makes me laugh and feel comfortable. He's tiny himself, TALL, but thin and i love it !!
Good luck to me today, birthday dinners are always the worst. Goal for the night? No dessert, no sweets, nothing. Just one meal when everyone else is eating, no second helpings, plenty of liquids.
xo
i can't get my grip on anything
time flies by and stands still
my heart feels like its about to burst
and only you can save me
and i trust you will save me
because i trust you more than anyone in my life
---
aunt's birthday today, thats means food, and lots of it.
luckily my mom made vegetarian versions of what she's serving for me and my best friend heather.
i MIGHT be able to invite my boyfriend over, but because of our recent "incident" at the house (my mom saw me straddling him and kissing in the computer room and she texted me, TEXTED ME!, to "get off of him now !!" -_-) he's on my mom's "shitlist". she never says the word shit. She's just trying to feel cool. Way to go, mom.
So my fingers are crossed that e can come, because my sister's boyfriend is coming and then hopefully heather's boyfriend will come too. What a cute bunch.
yesterdays menu was fairly good, had beans and rice for lunch that my mom made for me, and dinner didnt happen until around 8 when i got a veggie bowl at Chipotle. I stayed up until about 4 and "worked out" i guess? So i'm not too worried. Plus, i woke up looking a bit thinner, my hip bones are starting to come out !! {:
Today i had a slice of wheat toast with a slice of cheese (badddd!) and some hot cheetos-_- I'm drinking as many liquids as i can to flush that shit out.
Last night i told my boyfriend about how i "used to" cut myself. I still do, but haven't in a while. Thankfully it didn't scare him away. I told him because i didn't want him to see the scars and then ask and make it weird. Just thought i'd be honest about something for once. But, i'm always honest with him. There's nothing to lie about and nothing to hide. He doesn't even mind or ask questions about when my stomach growls. He makes it more like a joke and will put his ear to my stomach and say stuff like, "What's you say?" "Hello to you too!", cute stuff that makes me laugh and feel comfortable. He's tiny himself, TALL, but thin and i love it !!
Good luck to me today, birthday dinners are always the worst. Goal for the night? No dessert, no sweets, nothing. Just one meal when everyone else is eating, no second helpings, plenty of liquids.
xo
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